Part Deux…

People often talk about their current era. As in, “This is my Diva Era,” or “This is my Villain Era.” I don’t know that what I am experiencing can qualify as an entire era, but I do feel as though I have moved ahead into some unexplored territory. Well, that’s not really true. This isn’t necessarily unexplored territory; I’m simply viewing it from a new perspective. I’ve walked many creative paths, but I have done so as a distinct version of myself. A limited version. Now I am moving forward with intention, eyes and mind open.

I’m attempting this positivity elsewhere in my life as well. About 20 minutes ago, I accidentally broke a plate in the kitchen floor. Instead of allowing my mind to nosedive into that whole “we can’t have nice things/why did this have to happen/FML” rabbithole, I simply said to myself, “Shit happens.” Then I cleaned up the debris and finished what I was originally doing. I consider that growth. I have limited energy in this life. I refuse to waste any more of it on any woe-is-me bullshit. Besides, it’s just a fucking plate. I understand why I used to get upset over things like that: I grew up on the broke side of poor. Items were not always easily replaced. Money was tight. Things had to last. These days, I can certainly afford to replace a dinner plate, but escaping that mentality of poverty is not always so easy. I still have fleeting moments of “What am I going to do now?” Then, as quickly as that thought invades my psyche, I realize the situation is actually manageable.

I’m rambling now, aren’t I? Sorry. I have had my creative endeavors on pause for the last few months while I pursued an educational endeavor related to the day job. That is pretty much finished, save for a massive exam I have to study for and pass within the next two or so months. No pressure, right? Okay, some pressure. But nothing like the day in, day out classes and competencies I was required to complete to get here. I feel like I can breathe again, and create again. And this time around, I am not beholden to the confines of a pen name and persona. I’m excited to see what comes from this.

Until next time…